You had a real vision of what God wanted you to do with your life. You recall vividly the kind of things you felt you could do. But you failed. You have not gone on. You are still left with a broken bits of your dreams in your nevertheless hands.
What happened, why did you give up? Was it because God was taking you along a road who did not wish to travel? Was it because you found yourself in a place which seemed utterly dark and meaningless? Was it because you discovered that you have been called upon to carry some burden that you hated?
There is always a reason. Why do those difficulties arise? This is because the only school in which God can train His servants is the school of difficulty. You have to learn to trust Him completely for the very power to go on. So long as you have confidence in your own ability, your own technique, He will keep putting you into places where you have to face your own inadequacy. Whenever you feel you can get on without Him, He takes you to someplace where you have to cry out “Save me or I perish.“
God has to train out of the men and women He would use for His highest work, every ounce of self-reliance and self-sufficiency. Can you begin again? He has a new plan for you. Are you willing to go through with it until He gets you just where He wants you? Every day is a day of new beginnings, if you are willing to go all the way.
